N.Y.C.

well the summer has begun and I'm still adjusting. I started the summer off with a trip to NYC with the Drama group at school and it was a blast and it opened my eyes so much. I saw so many new things and had a blast. I've been very busy and in a pretty good mood. Except for when I came back from NYC b/c my cell phone dropped in a bucket of water and shorted and I didn't have insurance on it. so now I'm stuck with my crappy old phone and I'm broke from the NY trip and my car insurance is coming up soon. but other than that stuff things are going good I'm staying busy by work, family, and friends. I'm having a hard time trying to organize my time so I spend it with my friends and family. My birthday is coming up June 5th ! I'm so excited my brthday party is June the 2nd because some of my closest friends are leaving around the 4th. well I've got to head off to work bye!!

I wanna grow up a lil...

I'm at my sisters and My brother is over I'm starting to feel a lil out of place and young and weird. they are cool to hang out with but after a while you feel like you can't relate to them...I feel pretty young all of a sudden. I'm starting to realize how much I need to do before I graduate I still haven't taken ACT !!! I'm slacking ! I don't really know how to go about it though I guess I'll just get a packet and read it over and over. I went to the cast party for our play Annie and it was cool... even though I only stayed for about 20 or 30 minutes. It has been cool hanging out with my brother too...well I gtg he wants me to go hang out with him more bye!!!

why do we even need a title!?!?!?!

I've been noticing I've thought about Stash a lot lately I can't really help myself I just do. I see her in a lot of people; mostly just her friends or people that dressed like her. It seems like I see her out of the corner of my eye sometimes and I turn my head quickly even tho I know shes gone but I just keep remembering that I'll see her again one day...I've been a little stressed lately I brought up my english grade a bunch but my dad still isn't happy and I've tried really hard while trying to maintain a job and friendships at the same time and I think I've done good considering I came up three letter grades. But again its still not good enough for him. I've started talking to Nakk a lot on Msn Messenger and I'm getting to know him better than I used to when I'd just say hello or something like that.. I've learned he's full of intelligence....OH! I've been wanting to say this! I went to my friend's church Wednesday after our church (its the Nazarene church on Smithville HWY) and its a really awsome church and all and the people are really nice, but they made an announcement about becoming a member and they said you had to come to 3 classes on three Sundays and then you had to have three qualifications to become a member....!! I was quite astonished! In a way I thought it was god but then how are we supposed to reach the people that don't know Jesus Christ as their Lord and Savior!?!?!?! Its good that they wanted dedicated people in their church but man!! SPREAD THE WORD!!!! hehe sorry had to get that out... well I'm getting tired so goodnight!

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As time goes on I find it harder and harder to write in here. I dunno why. if you haven't noticed I can't seem to come up with a title. not a lot has gone on lately. My grandma has shoulder surgery to replace her shoulder. I went to see her today and she seemed like she was doing ok. I haven't seen her in a while either. My close friends are leaving me for the summer, and my birthday is in June and they'll miss it . but that will give me and Dustin some time to get even closer! I love him he just understands me so well its like God just said here Dustin figure this weirdo girl out. and hes so good at it too and no I don't think I have feelings for him. We are so close but my family has told me that when you have a close guy friend that sometimes those friendships will develope into a lasting relationship...but I dunno I'll wait for that, I still just wanna have friends for now...hes a really good friend...but enough of that junk I'm sure you didnt wanna hear that...I wish I had a different job. I don't like Hardee's much any more the people there are too dramatic but I guess its like that any where you go. I'm just glad I can get along easily with people...well I'm gettin a little tired os I'm gonna go to bed now! Bye for now!