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I've been working a lot lately its taking a lot out of me but its worth it. I think I found a car that might be pretty decent. I haven't actually checked it out or anyhting but I just looked at it. It's got a bunch of twigs and leaves in the seats and the trunk opens automaticly but the body isn't bad. I'ts a BMW 325 or somtihng like that I don't much about cars. and from what I could see it didn't have many miles on it but I think it does because its only 750 dollars. But hey if it runs and looks decent then I'll drive it. I had a dream about Stasha and it seemed completely real. I was in a crowded place and saw her and said Stash? and she turned around like nothing had ever happened and starting talking to me and we spent the day together then I woke up...I don't know if its because I haven't come to terms with her being gone or whats going on inside my head...

boredom post...

I'm sitting at home waiting for my clothes to dry for work. I've been swimming a lot lately and my muscles are kinda sore right now. I have to work tonight but I'm off tomorrow. Amber wants to go to Poets. I think I'll go after church. I hope I'll see Mr. Lay there he rocks he used to be my english teacher until they fired him for not teaching from the book... I think he taught us just fine. Other than that I don't know what I'll do tomorrow. I do know my car is screaming for some attention. It is a mess, I think I'll spend an hour or two tomorrow cleaning it. I have to go to the dentist Friday to see how my wisdom teeth are. I only have on that is really hurting me and is coming through my gums. Well enough of that I gotta get going.

long time no see

I got to go to South Carolina and see my mom. I haven't seen her in about a year so it was exciting somewhat. I wanted to suprise her so I got into my sisters trunk when we went to go pick her up. then my sister asked her to put something in the trunk and there I was and she got a little scared and almost said a few choice words because she thought I was a dead body lol. so we went back to my grandma's and we just kinda sat on the porch and let the mosquitos eat my legs. My mom wasn't saying much anything so I went inside. I was kinda upset she didn't much want to see me but I guess shes got some stuff on her mind. well the next day I got to see my brother. He was at the flea market with my grandma. I got to hang out with him for a while at the house but soon I had to leave.
This summer isn't going to be that great. my two closest friends are gone and the other can barely get out of the house. So I guess I'll just try to work really hard and save up for a car so I don't have to worry about using the one my parents let me have. This summer will be lonely but I'll try to go to church and be at work and make something of it. well I'm gonna go and get ready for work bye! comment if any ones reads this

What fun at work

all I really have to talk about is my fun night at work...
While working at the peacefulness of Hardees there was a van outside broke down with several people working on it when all of a sudden a strange women comes runnning in screaming and asking for a large CUP!! so I instictively gave her one then she filled it up with water and ran outside and I look and lo' and behold the van was on FIRE!!! LMBO!! well I tried not to laugh but it was funny then here comes Ryan running with a piture of water and then a bucket and Brenda is screaming call 911!! call 911!! so Ryan called 911 while I sat there running for water and they eventually put out the fire and then soon enough all these very hot firefighters where filling up the parking lot and I was in heaven! lol so tonight that van is gonna sitting in the parking lot... man the fun times at Hardee's

My Birthday!

I had my birthday somewhat planned out and and it was going to be thursday but my friends had a different veiw . Dustin and Ryanne took me out Tuesday to the movies and lunch then blindfolded me at Ryannes. they took me to my house then suprised me and it was so great. I would have to say it was the best birthday party I've ever had! My actual Birthday is Sunday and I don't know if I'm doing anything for that day but whatever I'm happy. I'm kinda in a band now at East Sparta Church of God. They needed a singer for their band along with the guy that sings and plays piano so Dustin R. brought me to his church and now I'm in their band I guess. I love being excepted to so many churches I go to my Church on Wednesday nights and after my church I go to my friends church. and on Sundays I usually work but if not I go to my church and I guess I'll be practicing with Dustin's band more often. I'm so excited I think Sunday night they are playing at the ampitheatre. I dunno if I will sing with them or not but I might. I'm so excited. oh yeah Nakk wanted me to tell some more about NYC well it was nothing I have ever seen before I always wanted to look up at all the huge buildings but our tour guide said if you wanna look like a tourist look up and that was the last thing I wanted to look like so I refrained from looking up and only did it in the bus safe behind the tinted windows. The Buildings where so beautiful and so artistic. and at night the lights where so beautiful. I loved going to the shops because the people where so nice. most of the men where hitting on the girls saying you are so beautiful...here have a post card lol and how they managed to slam a Mc D's into a lil peice of a building I will never know. Times square was so beautiful and so lit up with lights and had so many beautiful people. They plays where amazing and my eyes where lit up at every moment. I just loved my visit there and wouldn't mind to go again. well I should get going. God Bless

N.Y.C.

well the summer has begun and I'm still adjusting. I started the summer off with a trip to NYC with the Drama group at school and it was a blast and it opened my eyes so much. I saw so many new things and had a blast. I've been very busy and in a pretty good mood. Except for when I came back from NYC b/c my cell phone dropped in a bucket of water and shorted and I didn't have insurance on it. so now I'm stuck with my crappy old phone and I'm broke from the NY trip and my car insurance is coming up soon. but other than that stuff things are going good I'm staying busy by work, family, and friends. I'm having a hard time trying to organize my time so I spend it with my friends and family. My birthday is coming up June 5th ! I'm so excited my brthday party is June the 2nd because some of my closest friends are leaving around the 4th. well I've got to head off to work bye!!

I wanna grow up a lil...

I'm at my sisters and My brother is over I'm starting to feel a lil out of place and young and weird. they are cool to hang out with but after a while you feel like you can't relate to them...I feel pretty young all of a sudden. I'm starting to realize how much I need to do before I graduate I still haven't taken ACT !!! I'm slacking ! I don't really know how to go about it though I guess I'll just get a packet and read it over and over. I went to the cast party for our play Annie and it was cool... even though I only stayed for about 20 or 30 minutes. It has been cool hanging out with my brother too...well I gtg he wants me to go hang out with him more bye!!!

why do we even need a title!?!?!?!

I've been noticing I've thought about Stash a lot lately I can't really help myself I just do. I see her in a lot of people; mostly just her friends or people that dressed like her. It seems like I see her out of the corner of my eye sometimes and I turn my head quickly even tho I know shes gone but I just keep remembering that I'll see her again one day...I've been a little stressed lately I brought up my english grade a bunch but my dad still isn't happy and I've tried really hard while trying to maintain a job and friendships at the same time and I think I've done good considering I came up three letter grades. But again its still not good enough for him. I've started talking to Nakk a lot on Msn Messenger and I'm getting to know him better than I used to when I'd just say hello or something like that.. I've learned he's full of intelligence....OH! I've been wanting to say this! I went to my friend's church Wednesday after our church (its the Nazarene church on Smithville HWY) and its a really awsome church and all and the people are really nice, but they made an announcement about becoming a member and they said you had to come to 3 classes on three Sundays and then you had to have three qualifications to become a member....!! I was quite astonished! In a way I thought it was god but then how are we supposed to reach the people that don't know Jesus Christ as their Lord and Savior!?!?!?! Its good that they wanted dedicated people in their church but man!! SPREAD THE WORD!!!! hehe sorry had to get that out... well I'm getting tired so goodnight!

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As time goes on I find it harder and harder to write in here. I dunno why. if you haven't noticed I can't seem to come up with a title. not a lot has gone on lately. My grandma has shoulder surgery to replace her shoulder. I went to see her today and she seemed like she was doing ok. I haven't seen her in a while either. My close friends are leaving me for the summer, and my birthday is in June and they'll miss it . but that will give me and Dustin some time to get even closer! I love him he just understands me so well its like God just said here Dustin figure this weirdo girl out. and hes so good at it too and no I don't think I have feelings for him. We are so close but my family has told me that when you have a close guy friend that sometimes those friendships will develope into a lasting relationship...but I dunno I'll wait for that, I still just wanna have friends for now...hes a really good friend...but enough of that junk I'm sure you didnt wanna hear that...I wish I had a different job. I don't like Hardee's much any more the people there are too dramatic but I guess its like that any where you go. I'm just glad I can get along easily with people...well I'm gettin a little tired os I'm gonna go to bed now! Bye for now!

Gah

this week has been very tiring but somewhat decent. Prom was last night and it was ok but I'd recommend going w/o a date it kinda stunk cuz George never danced but on slow songs but I felt stupid doing that stupid lil swaying back and forth thing. by the time we left prom I was worn out from having to work that day and I was depressed so when we went bowling I didn't have that much fun I just sat there freezing with crossed arms. but owell can't conplain cuz George actually paid for my dinner WOW! heh well I'm tired of rambling on ta ta

Prom!

I haven't updated in a while ... but I don't remember too much of this past week but Prom is coming up! I'm excited I get to look pretty for a day! I've been helping to set it up its looking awsome except the collums(sp?) they are crusty and ugly, good thing it will be dark hehe I get out of class Friday to help set it up. oh yeah I'm on the ballet for prom princess! WOO! for me! I hope I win but then I don't wanna. owell it'll be cool. well thats all I can think of to write for now ...

Fun but Tiring

This week was very tiring I was in the play at School, which is as you know Annie. It went very well and everyone loved it. My dad and uncle had tears in there eyes when it was over. hehe I saw some of my friends out there including Ryanne!! and Jo!!! It was very fun being able to get closer with some of my other friends. On there other hand the late nights killed me! staying till 11ish almost every night and then getting up and going to school like Friday night I went home at 11:00 then had to get up at 4:20 for work the next morning. and stayed out till 1:00 Saturday night going to a cast party at I Hop and getting up at 5:30 the next morning but I got 14 hours of sleep last night because I went to sleep at 4:00 so I'm good now. but enough whining I'm glad we did so well with the play and I'm glad its over well I've got to get off to work!
au revoir!!!

Rough...

sorry I haven't posted in a while I've had a rough last couple of days. Stasha passed away...it hit me hard and still is I still can't bring myself to belive it thinking maybe someone heard something wrong somewhere along the line but thats hard to believe now ... I had so much sutff I wanted to tell her like I'm sorry and I love her...and I'm not sure if she was right with God either ...that really upsets me about myself because I feel like God put me in her life to help her and tell ehr about God, but I failed completly at that and now I'm unsure about where she is ..enough of that

The play is coming up I'm so nervous but so excited at the same time. Its my first play and my family will be there so I hope I don't mess up, but it wont be the end of the world...well I need o get off here so night!

an ok week...

It wasn't exactly a week that I'll remeber forever I hated it because I wasn't in a great mood...I was in an "ok" mood. I don't like it when I'm not in a happy mood, but at the same time I don't like being happy all the time, but owell can't be satisfied al your life right?...well today was pretty good except I had to work. I had to work with Daniel which I usually hate but he wasn't that bad tonight. we actually got along! and Ryan wasn't too bad either. I have play practice practically all next week and if not I got a cool lil break form work! =D . I'm going to play practice then the renasance festival to see Jade, Jared, and George. hehe Jared came through drive through today and he kinda freaked me out cuz I answered drive through and he was like DEDER!!! hehe it kinda scared me b/c a lot of ppl do that once they realize its me lol but I didn't recognize his voice. Jessica couldn't find me today at play practice and she was asking ppl wher Dustin and I where and they said well why don't you chek the storage closet! man its killing everyone thinks Dustin and I are dating btu we aren't we are just friends!!! lol hes a good friend too! all my friends are!! =D (brownie points!!) hehe well I guess I'll shut up for now and go take a shower and go to bed night!

Spring Break!!!...

I was so glad for spring break to come. I did have to work every other day but it was minor. I loved to spend time with my closest friends I wish I didn't have to work any more so I could just spend time with my friends but I gotta grow up sometime. I saw George a little...Jade got mad at me I don't know why. I haven't done anyhting to make her mad at me even Jared and Jessica agree I haven't... so I dunno whats goign on...Stash has taken a turn for the worse... They where moving her to Mabry but but her temperature was high. so they put her in a Livingston Hospital. She was moved from Livingston because they could not maintain her medicational regiment. Stasha is back at Vanderbilt because they have the proper equipment to treat her and to maintain her temperature.so now we wait and see what happens... please pray...

Quite an amusing day...

I have had a fun time remebering my username but I have found it and it mad me mad earlier when I couldn't find it but now its quite funny I was going to go see Stash but suposedly she had a stroke plz pray for her... well I'm gonna go and ride the four wheelers for a while and then find something to do today...while riding four wheelers Jessica went inside and I stayed outside and and parked the fourwheelers on the hill and it was really beautiful and sunny and reminded me of spring and Easter then I thought wow a lot of us forget the meaning behind Easter...like me... so I decided tonight I need to do some more research besides the boring little children stories I heard in sunday school...so needless to say I will learn something more tonight when I open the Bible. I went to coffee corner tonight and had tons of fun with my friends I was glad we could just let go and have fun well good night and =) hope ya had a nice day everyone !! Love ya!

Well..

Wel I just started this Joel invited me to this wonderful site Ive decided to use this bolg as a positive blog ...I write to much abotu how bad my day was so I will write positive! =)